What comes around goes around

I do believe in this.i am a the most bottom now. Soon,the upper most is awaiting me.

I have no precise say,whether this is a true or fake feeling,i dont know. Its very are of me not speaking frankly. You,when i see you,you dont have much physique beauty,well honestly youre quite pretty too,though,but theres just something about you.i just dont know the authenticity of this feelings,im just so lost now. Is it a feeling that comes between from a resented heart of mine? Perhaps,my past experience taught me,no matter how much i loved someone,no matter how much i fall for her,no matter how compassionate i am with her,no matter how long i stood for her,if shes born not to be the way she is,then she is not for me. Its time for a new exploration, i feel wasted being "loyal" to someone who is so unfaithful. So much so, I hope,my feelings for you is a true one. Not a single feature of yours gives the prospect of a heartbreaker.

WUN

Atah,it was shocking to learn that you decided to get disappeared just like that.but thank god,here you are on the 1st day of raya,you seem to be back. Thanks a lot. I have now someone to joke with,to talk to and most importantly,to have the reason to smile on the screen again :)

my so-called the 28th of August.

like years ago,the day i was anticipating for.every year,you didnt turn up. I never missed waiting,i waited for the whole day. I just learnt that it doesnt mean a thing to you,the whole thing between us. all my thoughts about us,what i believe in,what i fought for are all disillusioned. Its weary and im so tired now. you never appreciated my presence. Ive been the person who you come to when you get broken.i make you laugh and smile though im in deep misery. theres no payback for all my sacrifices.

After 4 years,ive proven everything,this is all what i can be. so yeah,ive never been good enough to you. I once promised you that i would fight,no matter what would happen. now i think its time to stop.its been so long.away too long. not once,twice,thrice nor 4 times,but ive been through a lot of guys. Theres no just in here.

I may not have much,but what i gave you is nothing to compare with. All the experience,my childhood days with you,all the past stories i told you, dont you think its a 1 in a billion opportunity given to you?do you have anyone like me?the one who is so truly.i've came to your life so often,ive been always there.you treated me harsh still i stand by your side.you trashed me,still you found me around.

Everything changed from yesterday. I dont wanna fight for this course anymore,i just give up. I dont have such feelings that i always had for you. I no longer smile reminiscing our past,it was sweet but now its just too bitter to be thought. The memories,you can keep it but never ever hope to relive it. Now i will be gone.we will be gone. Another guy for you will not hurt me anymore, im immune to your actions.

I don't love you anymore.

Psychology:Individual differences.

Here is some notes,without referring to any material.I will try my best to explain the bits and parcel of what i have studied. Individual differences in psychology is the study of human behaviour,where human may differs from each other. The studies are often ethcnocentrically bias(judging from one's own ethnic point of view). The study which i am going to post about later is the review study conducted by Hraba and Grant. This study is a replica of a previous study conducted by Clarke and Clarke on racial issue.

The aim of the study is to see the 1)racial identity 2)racial self identification 3)racial preferences among both black and white children. Racial identity in psychology may refer to the ability to differentiate human race,in the early stage (4-6 years old) such as black and white and a bit later (6-9) on more sophisticated one such as identifying hispanic,Malays and etc.

Racial self identitification in psychological terms may refer to the ability to identify one's race. For example a black american child awares of his race,admitting he belongs to the community of the black Americans.

Racial preference may refer to the evaluation of the preference among people in terms of race. Which race would be preferable(gives more positive values).

To be continued.....

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so quite in here.i have to update my blog.tomorrow perhaps,if im not busy. Recently,ive been downloading classic songs ranging from the 90's to early 2000. I dont know how and why,i am pretty distinctive than fellow teenagers out there.not only in musical taste but in many aspects. Frankly saying,contemporary songs barely caught my interest. Some few songs which i just downloaded are of 90's housepowers such as Sade,Savage garden and etc.ohh yess,maybe my interest originated from my lovely childhood days.yeahh,back in the days in the mid 90's,my mom and i,we used to travel a lot.spending my morning glory in the car with her was is just the feeling that all i wanted now. While travelling,The only console that entertained me from the boredom was music.i remember most of the songs that i heard on the radio with my mom.

La isla bonita by Madonna. This song really reminds me of my past.yeahh,it really does.this is one of my all time favouvrites.Its just so special for me. I remember,back in 97 seating at the back of the car heading to Bandar,my mom put on the cassette and this song was played. ohh to be exact,we were then in front of Riverview hotel,waiting for the redlight to turn green.sorry for the extra info,back to the main line.suddenly,this strange feeling came(well for a 5 year-old kid,that was just so extremely strange)i started to think of someone. my 1st crush,a distant cousin of mine. it was so crazy that,a few days preceded,i caught into kind of a KID FIGHT with her.how funny that i beat her down to tears.*GIGGLES* ohhh her looks is just so fresh in my mind. She had this crazy long hair,which she played with while taunting me to beat her up like she curled her hair while making the face to me and sticking her tongue out.Cute right?HAHAHA then she wore this cute little pajamas(dark blue close to black)with red design by the wrist and around the collar.

Im sleepy,imma continue tomorrow!

Gee

Mbak jihah,aku kangen banget sama kamu~~~~~~~~~~~~~